Monday, June 29, 2009

♥ Boring day.

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The card I made for him

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The card he made for me. =]

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Yesterday I was kemas-ing my messy room.

Guess what?

I found this. Hoho.

I was keep smiling when I reading this.

Cute huh?

I think it's the time when me and him just recognized each other.

JunXian intro Jun to me.

Then 2 of us keep on chatting around everyday.

We promised each other we'll made each other a card.

I made him a Christmas card and he made me a New Year card.

So damn cute.

I think 2nd week of school he only past me the card.

Then next day he woke up in early morning,

for frying an egg for me. So funny ~

And he said he 1st time made breakfast for a girl.

Wooohooo ~ Im the 1st one. LALALALALA ~

He was shy to talk to me.

Then slowly we coupled. LOLS ~

Cute?

School went usually today.

It was boring.

Then 2nd recess I saw him with his moody face.

I think must be result problem made him lik this.

I was right, few min later David came and told me the same thing.

I knew him! Even just a small little case can make him angry.

In class keep fa dai, about him. =X

So damn freaking bored.

No mood to listen to class.

We never talk never chat today.

He never on his msn.

Keep waiting for him but still never on.

Thought can accompany him today.

No chance ~

Yesterday went out,

bought a lot of stupid things for making a card for him.

16 July is coming soon. ^^

Need to get ready.

And 14 July is Silver Valentine.

Me and Xinyi was planning going out to buy something for the Valentine.

Luckily daddy yesterday gave me Rm150.

Now my wallet got Rm200 ++.

I need to buy Jean and Juv a birthday present also.

OMG ~ Promised him buy him a cap exacly same as mine.

But the cap cost me Rm30 ++

And I promised Juv I'll buy her a present as soon as possible.

Im dying ~

K larr..

I'll stop here today.

GTG, bye humans!

I AM GRUMPY.
02:47

Saturday, June 27, 2009

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EMO

I AM GRUMPY.
00:51

Friday, June 26, 2009

♥ Exam #06

Finally, exam had finished.
morning came school then Xinyi told me she's not coming with me.
I damn dissapointed.
Then nvm,
after exam went Mv with Jaycie they all.
I saw Xinyi and Jiarun,
they said shop til 11.30 something then go back school.
I followed them.
Leon followed us too.
4 of us went da gei cheong played racing car.
Leon got 1st, Xinyi got 2nd, I got 4th and Jiarun got 5th.
Lols.
While I was playing with Xinyi.
The volume too loud, it shocked me.
I screamed. Wtf?!
So funny and Xinyi was laughing at me.
4 o us played bball too. xD
My highest score is 100 !!!!!!!!
Not bad larr ~
Actually Im gonna stays til 2.30 for watching movie.
I promised Leon.
Xinyi and Jun ffk.
Then we cancelled adi.
I dont feel like staying at mv any longer.
Coz I hurted my left leg,
it's like getting worse,
5 days already.
Going to visit doctor soon.
Alamak T.T
So I went back school with Xinyi and Jiarun about 11 something.
We shopped a while.
I bought a ring and my name necklace. ^^
Cost me Rm27 ++
Picha coming soon.
I brought Rm110 today.
Now left Rm50.
OMG ~
Then I played volley ball for few min.
I went back home alone by taxi.
Reached home then updating my blog.
Jean's bday coming soon.
Tue I think gonna celebrate with him.
He asked me to go out on Tue.
Happy uncoming birthday, Jean, =D
That's all for today.
Although exam was finished,
I thought I might be happier,
but my mood still the same.
Really unhappy.
I was right.
He ffk me again!
No Mood!!
Gtg, bye humans. =]

I AM GRUMPY.
23:05

♥ Exam #05

With Xinyi sweetheart. ^^

Love this O.O Reb took it without telling me.
I was listening music with my moody face. =D
Mainpoint at my sexy leg =X Sexy ma? LOLS

Stupid childish girl ~ ==

Fang dian ~ Bzzzzzzz...

Playground. Jaycie's leg. O.O

The two innocent babes.

Yay ~ LOVE ~

Jaycie captured it! Our lovely leg, we should appreciate it.
Forgive me for spoiling the pic. I was talking!!!!!

Got feel got feel..

This want ok ok only larr.. ILY Jaycie ^^

The dao geis !!!!

Lols. All dao geis took pic.

Reb brought camera to school.

Our zhilian sickness will happen coz camera!

Then, whole recess all never study just kept on talking pic.

We went into kindagarden. LOL.
Then, we went up took pic again!

Really beh tahan them.

I was the one asked them to take pic too =X

Then recess time talked talked chat with him.

Quite happy also.

Hope tomorrow he's coming.

But everytime he ffk me.

Sometimes I felt that no more hope adi..

Haizz..

That's all for today.

Gtg ~

I AM GRUMPY.
05:05

Thursday, June 25, 2009

♥ Exam #04

My mood was fucking down right now.
My geo ( chi ) not bad lar.
I think I can pass this time.
I did study hard.
Recess time,
I saw him and he looked at me and walked away.
Then, my mood was really really down.
About my parents.
I can't see them for another week coz they just came back from Perth.
OMG ~ I was so unhappy about it.
I was sitting alone outside my class,
listening to my MP3.
Then I felt someone touched my bun.
I looked up, it's him.
I looked at him and he saw my moody face.
He walked away just like that.
Coz my mood was down, so maybe he thought I angry him or whatever.
While I was doing melayu exam paper,
my mood was so down.
I can't concentrate on doing it.
All my mind was...GRRRRRRRRR
WTF?!
I wasted half an hour to think about "it".
Then I only considered starts doing the exam paper.
Last min I finished up my paper.
Then waiting Xinyi and Rebecca to find me.
We met up and we stood there for 15 min to discuss,
are we going to Mv or Ts?
I dont feel like going Mv.
Coz Sat Im going to Mv.
3 of us reached ts,
we went Station Kopitiam for having our lunch.
All of us were so freaking hungry.
Then, me and Xinyi kept on reading Reb msg from her bf.
Stupid larrr~ So sweet!
I felt like someone is watching us,
I turned around I thought what was it.
I was shocked and it's just a sticker.
Xinyi saw my face, she was shocked too.
So funny her face. ==
Too bad never captured dou.
I ordered lamb chop and 2 of them makan chicken chop.
Full dou sei!!
We ordered mushroom soup somemore. ==
Then after finished makan,
they sent me to monorail station.
Then went home,
ONLINE!
Thats' all for today.
I no mood to study now.
O.O Sad ~

I AM GRUMPY.
05:32

Tuesday, June 23, 2009

♥ Exam #03

Today my history and KH.
Kh simply tembak ~
Grrr~
Never study KH lur.
Then history not bad lar..
Subjective questions difficult.
Morning very down.
Then now mood turned good.^^
Tomorrow going ts with Reb, Xinyi and Wen Fang.
WOOHOOOO ~
Gonna take new lens.
And eat tomyam.
Yummy ~
* yawn *
So sleepy now.
Gtg.. Night study ^^

I AM GRUMPY.
23:18

Monday, June 22, 2009

♥ Exam #02

2nd day of exam.
I slept at 2am this morning for studying SCIENCE!
Then today my sci paper.
Not so good and not so bad lar.
I pass then I happy already.
Chinese was easy.
Thanks to those people who gave me tips. ^^
I last min only memorise everything.
But chinese was easy for me.
Hoho ~
Today everything was pretty fine.
Never talk to him today.
But now I'm chatting with him.
His mood turned good.
K larr.
Gtg sin =D

I AM GRUMPY.
23:22

Sunday, June 21, 2009

♥ Exam.

Woke up at 5am something.
Im so damn freaking tired.
Promised Aaron came to school at 6.30am for studying maths.
Reached school, met up with Aaron.
Then, we were studying til 7.30am something.
When I left F class,
I saw him and his face was so moody.
But we never say anything coz yesterday,
dont know what happen to him.
Mood so down then no mood chat with me I think.
Went back my class.
Then started my exam paper.
Maths paper quite hard.
But still ok lar.
After that, recess time.
Went down canteen,
makan makan makan.
I no mood makan also.
Then, I wanna call my uncle to pick me up at 1.30pm.
I saw him and I touched his face.
Then he pushed my hand away.
Made me more down.
Then went up class.
Next, eng paper.
Quite easy larr.
Can score high marks I think?
I spent half an hour to do it only.
1 hour sleeping.
While Im sleeping,
something bad happened.
I dont feel like mention it.
After school, played volley with Xy and Reb.
We keep scolding each other cacat.
Wtf?!
I created a song " CaCat Boommmmmmmmm " ==
Then 2 of them keep laughing laughing like sorpoh.
After that, went back home.
Onlined lur.
He's online-ing too.
Never choi me.
Really dont know what's on his mind la?
So complicated.
Always makes my mood going down.
T.T Gtg ~

I AM GRUMPY.
23:33

Saturday, June 20, 2009

♥ Maths maths maths !!!!!

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Yesterday night about 9 something I started to study.

OMG ~ My maths..

Then I on my msn.

Luckily Jaycie and Aaron were onlined.

Hoho~

Then 3 of us were doing maths in msn.

It was so cute ^^

All doing maths and we were sharing our answer.

Then the smart Aaron go drew the angles,

and wrote those answer using PAINT!

So cute larr~

I was laughing there.

So smart he can thought of this idea.

LOLS.

Aaron is good in maths.

Jaycie not bad also.

Just me so stupid.

So they were teaching me. =D

Thanks (L)

Then 3 of us from 10pm studied in msn til 1am.

All of us was so rajin.
Now I was doing maths with them again.

Hahaha.. Plus Xinyi also. =D

Gtg.. Exam good luck.

I AM GRUMPY.
22:05

♥ I desire..

Morning about 7.10 I reached school.
Reached school I talked with Peijun and Jaycie.
Then, whole day quite boring.
Physic I dont understand any single shit.
Maths too ~
Im real dead.
Then, played badminton with Peijun.
Her skills still same,
it recalled me the old times when we were in badminton society.
Those hard time, cute ^^
Then, after finished playing badminton,
Me and Xinyi were running and the wind so strong.
I felt so cold and nice.
So we were running so fast.
I fast fast rushed up to my class.
I promised him yesterday.
Settled down everything then straight went to his class.
I sat beside him.
Then he suddenly walked away,
I thought what happen.
Then I sat there quietly tied my shoe,
so sudden he came from behind and gave me a warm hug.
Lols. I smiled at him.
He lay on his table and we looked at each other.
So sudden he hugged me and pressed his lips to mine. =D
So happy ~
Then, two of us were playing and chatting around.
He stole my biscuit too. T.T
After that, Jiarun came and talked with us.
I sat there diam diam.
Last day of exam he's going to Sunway and Im going to MV.
Sad case, then I saw them talked til so happy,
dont feels like disturbing them also.
So I went back to my class.

Wooohoooo...After school Xinyi and David coming to my house.

Quite excited larr..

Xinyi accompany me went ts paid cons money, total Rm155.

Went there, keep finding where's the shop.

Walking here and there.

Then went back school about 1.35pm.

Reached home stupid David playing with my small cousin.

He used the fake flower stick to play with my cousin's...

Me and Xinyi was like..O.O Wtf?! Two of us were shocked.

And we started to laugh. Keep laughing.

We studied abit then played computer.

1st I my mood quite bad coz David told me something that

PISSED ME OFF!!

Then at last I smiled back coz I was misunderstanding.

Then 3 of us were quite tired and sleepy.

Lols. And I looked at them so sweet.

Hugging each other and they're so lovely.

Xinyi was so worry her mom gonna scold her.

At last, about 5.35pm only we reached Hang Tuah Monorail Station.

I bet her heart sure jumping upside down.

Then reached home and online.

Teeeeheeeeeeee xD

I AM GRUMPY.
03:25

Thursday, June 18, 2009

♥ 1st day without mommy and daddy.

I want mommy and daddy.
I miss them like hell. O.O
Okays, everything went normally today.
I put all my attention on what's teacher saying.
How good am I?
Lols.
Chatting with Peijun and Jaycie.
Woooohooo ~ Love them (L)
1st recess Aaron came my class,
chatting around and making me laughing like an idiot.
He talked about Wenjun, a guy who I dont know.
Lols, we laughed, we were hitting the table especially Jaycie. O.O
You cant imagine how she laugh like. Haha.. * Jaycie gonna kill me *
Then, morning my grandma cooked fried rice for me.
Yums yums ~
Jaycie and Peijun keep on stealing my food.
Then, 2nd recess me and Xinyi went toilet,
we came back toilet and we saw Reb standing outside our class.
So, we were hiding around. Running here and there.
We were hiding in her class.
Then I accidently pushed Xinyi and her hand had a small cut.
I felt so sad ler.
She keep zat me said my hand pain arhh..Your fault lar!!
I was like..T.T lols.
K lar..I lazy to type more.
Gtg =D

I AM GRUMPY.
01:47

Wednesday, June 17, 2009

♥ ='(

Mom and dad are going to Perth. I'm gonna miss them. Then, it's the 3rd day, he never talked to me again. Okays, whole day I'm being emo and I was so damn fucking down. Then, PeiJun, Xinyi and Jaycie saw me and they couldn't do anything also. Only they knew those tears dropping down from my eyes. I no talked much today. I don't feel like seeing him around coz it's remind me think about us. So, 3 days I went toilet never pass through his class. I tried my best not to see him. Everyone knows. But I always see him outside my class every 2nd recess. I can't stop myself staring at him. I was so quiet in class and everyone was shocked. Then, 2 period no teacher comes to my class. All classmates were playing around. Running here and there. I was lying on Xinyi's thigh, looking at them with my tears face. Xinyi and Jaycie were wiping my tears. I talked to them a lot today. Then so sudden, HungBin shouted:" why she's crying like a bitch? ". I gave him a smile. He smiled back at me. Then, I went to curtain there, Xinyi and Jaycie came, looking at me. I was looking outside the window. Then David came, Jaycie asked them to hug each other and press their lips to each other. The second they kissed I turned around. Looking at Peijun and I went to hug her. I never say a thing. I just kept quiet hugging her tight. She told me I know how you feel. I hugged her tighter. I bet those people never know how's the feeling loving someone to seem like a rush to throw you away? Those people who experience it only could tell how much it hurts. We couldn't say a thing, all we can do is watching the whole thing fall and hoping and praying that he/she will come back to us. I just got so hurt..really hurt & sometimes when that happens, something inside just shuts off. I dropped a fake smile as a tear fell down on my cheek and I whispered to myself, "I can't handle this anymore...". It's been a while since two of us talked, knowing things would never be the same, with your empty heart and mine full of pain. I gave you love, all you gave me was pretend. Vince told me people change for either two reasons, they've learned enough that they want to or they've been hurt enough they have to. I love this. He told me a lot of things and thanks to him. But I'm really down, I can't control myself and I'm losing control now. I can't get over him. Watching him walking away is the part that hurts the most.

I AM GRUMPY.
01:54

Tuesday, June 16, 2009

♥ 16.O6.O9

Happy 6th Month Anniversary to myself for the 2nd time.
It was last night,
when I was thinking something that you said to me.
I started to cry
because I realized just how much I missed you.
I don't think I’ve ever felt so confused in my entire life.
Tears keep on dropping on my blanket.
Then get up in the morning,
looked at the mirror.
Saw my swollen eyes.
Asking myself,
how come my eyes is getting smaller and smaller?
Then I realized that I'm totally losing you now.
I have to face the truth,
and now it's time.
Should I let go?
But no matter what I do,
I always forget to forget about you.
I gave you my all,
and you gave nothing at all.
Losing you was hard enough,
but I don't want to go on knowing,
I meant absolutely nothing to you.
You're not even mine anymore,
and I'm still scared I'll lose you.
Sometimes I wonder why the fuck I'm still missing you.
I look at the pictures of us together yesterday,
and I wish we could have those moments again.
I could tell you that I love you one more time,
and you could say sorry for leaving me alone.
Then just tears flowing down my cheeks again and again.
I don’t think I have the strength to let you go, seriously.
Somtimes I wonder if he ever thinks about what he did to me.
I wonder if he ever thinks about me and says,
I wish she was still mine.
I don't know why i missed you,
yhy I wanted you back.
because from where I stand,
no one was having fun.
I spent hours, days, even months of
our relationship worrying about
who you might leave me for
because there was always someone better than me.
I spent some time trying to be the perfect girlfriend until I couldn't anymore.
My body tried to tell me it had to stop,
our relationship was literally making me sick.
You wanna get me out of your mind,
that's what you wanted right?
I think it was over before you said it, babe.

fuck you for leading me on .
fuck you for making me fall for you.
fuck you for being perfect in my eyes.
fuck you for knowing what to say, everytime.
fuck you for trying to act that you cared.
fuck you for making me want you.
fuck you for letting me go.
fuck you for making those tears I had dropped for you.
fuck you for keep on stabbing my heart.
fuck you..

I AM GRUMPY.
01:27

Monday, June 15, 2009

♥ 1st day of school.

Okays, school reopen today.
I was keep yawning this morning.
I was so tired and my panda eyes came out. ALAMAK!!
Then, reached school then Reb rushed to me and hugged me. =D
We were talking around.
Then, I was wondering where is my cutie? Lols.
After that, accembly was so bored. ==
Everything went usually.
Then, I saw him while I'm walking to toilet,
he cut his hair and his hair was short.
Not bad, cute =D
Just like school days.
Go down every 1st recess.
But something changed,
last time every 2nd recess I was in D class accompany him.
Now no more.
We recouple and now the way he acted like I'm a stranger.
Tomorrow is 16 June.
Me and him 6 months Anniversary.
I don't know whether he remember it or not.
We never talked a single word today.
While holiday he kept on telling me he missed me a lot.
But when I see him and he's like ignored me.
I hate it, the way he treated me like this.
Fine, get over it.
I 99.9% comfirm he's gonna forget about the Anniversary.
As usual, keep the pain for myself.
Nothing else I can do.
Just hope he will come and talks to me.
My mood was down again,
I slept for last 2 period.
Syok! Coz I sleep late this morning. =Y
What a day?

I AM GRUMPY.
01:50

♥ Lols?

Ok.. Let's starts from Sunday morning. I told mommy I feel like going to Sabah. I used to live there since I'm a small kid about 1 or 2 years old. I told her I feel like visiting there. I heard of Sabah is getting nicer. Those beautiful places. So, I asked her whether can go there with friends. So suprise she and daddy agreed. OMG ~ Lols. I'm so excited man. I checked on flight ticket. Rm30.90 each person ONLY! About 12am something I onlined. I told Xinyi and she said see how first. Then 1am something, I cant sleep. Keep rolling here and there. And missing him of cause. =D Then, I was keep thinking, midnight who else not yet sleep? So, I tried to call Rebecca, coz sometimes she onlined til so late I think maybe she not yet sleep. Then, she picked up the phone, I was shocked. Haha.. Finally got people can chit chat with me. Then me and her talked about a lot of things. Our sweet memories, like Sunway trip, Pavillion trip and more. 5 of us were so close to each other, 5 sisters all also taken and relationship not bad also. We talked about what we did, those crazy things. Our laughter, those childish time, acting naughty and more. Makes me felt those time so sweet and I felt like going back to the old times. Now my life sucks a lot. And my happiness never last that long. Then suddenly we talked about Jun and Wx ( her bf ). Then, suddenly our happy mood keep going down. So damn freaking down. First so sweet, then after recouple and everything changed. Conversation is getting cold. Makes me felt so uncomfortable. Then, I had forgotten why I started to talk about ghost stuff? Okays, it's midnight now! I asked Reb look at your window, look at your door. A long hair ghost is sleeping beside u now. Watching you, touching your toe slowly to the top. OMG ~ She shouted. I scared also actually. Coz I'm lying on my bed and the light was OFF. So, my room was quite dark. Lols. I told her I'm scared and I'm gonna stand up and switchs on the lights. I run and I accidently cut dou my finger. I was shouting and blamed her. Wakakaka xD Lols. We laughed a lot and I so damn scared my mom gonna wake up. Luckily she did not. Then, we talked for 2 hrs I realized it at last. Then about 3 something, I felt sleepy. Then, we hang up the phone. I keep rolling on my bed. USELESS~ Can't sleep again. So, I woke up guess what I did? I kemas my room? I threw a lot of rubbish. My handbags, shirts and pants, those I never use it anymore. Wahh, kemas til 6.30!!!! == Tired sei me then I slept ler. =D

Then woke up at 3 something, then reading my story books and I no mood to study. I feel like calling him but don't dare enough. Coz I'm not really sure whether he stil loves me or not? Or he's lying to himself and acting like he cared. Then, 7 something, my parents and I went out had dinner with grandma and pa. We ate the crab rice. Yums yums ~ =] Then, went back home. Do the same thing, watched tv, reading my books and I wanted to call Reb but the phone inside my parent's room. They locked the door. Then, kept on thinking me and him stories. Lying on my bed missing him badly. Feel like cuddle him tight and sleep. Impossible.. I wish I can. About 4 something only I slept. K larr.. I stopped here. Byes xD Last but not least I love my sisters. =D

Thanks Reb for accompany me talking. I bet she enjoyed too. Some pics up there. Enoy =D

4 hearts together ; 1 heart forever

I AM GRUMPY.
00:45

Thursday, June 11, 2009

♥ OMG ~ O.O

I saw this watch. GORGEOUS!

I think it's Rm300++ I want it I want it so much~ T.T

Red or white prettier? Lols.

I prefer white.

Aiyak!

Both also nice lar hor? =D

Super duper sien arhh!!!!!! T.T

Today I slept at 6.30am morning.

Chi ma gan de Jessy ~ ==

Whole morning don't let me sleep.

She said school recopen soon,

no chance to sleep late late liao.

Then, I thought she got any plan can go wet at night.

Then hor, asked me pui her watch tv!

I scolded her %$#%$^&%(*^&)*(&.. ==

She dont give a flying fuck about me also.

Then, she watched her tv I sleep at sofa.

After that, she on the volume so loud,

I was lying on the sofa and HOW CAN I SLEEP?!==

What a morning?

Then I pui her watch ha watch ha watched til 6.30am ++

I not sleepy liao then she beh tahan sendiri sleep jor.

I nothing to do then sleep ha sleep ha sleep til 4.30pm only woke up.

Chi sin de! ==

Then, let grandma scolded me lor.

You no need study ka?!

Sleep so late now sitting in front of comp..

I was like.. Chehh~ W.H.A.T.E.V.E.R!

Now so sien, nothing to do. T.T

Lazy to write more.

That's all for today. ==

STUPID DAY!

I AM GRUMPY.
02:37

Wednesday, June 10, 2009

♥ Don't go away - By2

Lyrics/歌词：

Looking through your eyes,
theres nothing to hide
And you're no longer mine
How could I survive when you say goodbye?
Why do birds still fly up high?
Can't stop the tears from fallin'
We used to be so fine when you walked into my life
I tried to reach out for you just to be with you
My heart is breakin'

Don't Don't go away
Baby, don't you know，
I miss you so Don't
Don't go away
I've never been on my own before

Wooh Oh
Cant you hear me just take me with you
So dont dont go away

Don't Don't go away
Baby, don't you know，
I miss you so Don't
Don't go away
I've never been on my own before
So wont you feel my heartbeat once more

I AM GRUMPY.
03:59

♥ Tagged..

1)The person who tagged you is: Just found this at Aaron's blog
2) Your relationship with him/her is: Good friend
3)Your first impression of him/her is: BAD GUY!
4)The most memorable moments with he/she: Last day of school ( sri inai)
5)The most memorable thing he/she has said to you is: I.L.Y.F
6)If he/she becomes your lover, you will...: He's my ex.. ==
7)If he/she became your lover, what should he/she improve at: Stop making the conversation cold?
8)If he/she becomes your enemy, what would you do: Never!! >@<
9)If he/she becomes your enemy, the reason will be: LANCI..=D
10)The most desired thing you want to do for him/her now is: Belanja him makan?
11)Your overall impression on him/her: Good friends.
12)The characteristic you love most about yourself: Loving? caring? lol?
13)The characteristic you hate most about yourself: Stubborn and Naive ( sometimes )
14) The most ideal person you want to be is: Myself =D
15)For people who care and love you, say something to them: ILY babes.
Pass this quiz to 10 people who you want to know how they feel about you:

1.Jaycie

2.Xinyi

3.David

4.Rebecca.L

5.Rebecca.W

6.Sam.E

7.Jessy

8.Sam.N

9.Aaron.L

10.Aaron.S

17)Who is 6 having relationship with? with 5.
18)Is 9 a male or a female? Male
19)What is 2 studying at the moment? Kc high school
20)Who was the last person you had a chat with? Jaycie
21)What kind of music does 8 like? Tak tau..
22)Does 1 have any siblings ? I think so.
23)Is 4 single? She's taken.
24)What is the surname of 5? Wong
25)What's the hobby of 5? Joking around with her bf?
26)Do 7 and 9 get along well? They don know each other.
27)Where is 10 studying at? Kc again.
28)Say something casual about your eyes: Black. I love my pretty eyes. =D
29)Have you tried developing feelings for 2? Ehem..
30)Where does 9 live? Bukit Antarabangsa but now I think he moved.
31)What colour does 4 like? White
32)Are 5 and 1 good friends/Do they know each other? Nope, but they know each other.
33)Does 2 like 7? They dont know each other larr..
34)How did you get to know 8? My beloved cousin.. DUH..
35)Does 1 have any pets? Nope.
36)Is 7 the sexiest person in the world? YES!!
37)Are you sexy? Ofcoz im sexy. =]
38)What am i doing now? chatting around and doing this tag.

I TAG :
Jaycie
Xinyi
Rebecca. Xy
Juv
and whoever wanna do this tag

I AM GRUMPY.
01:04

Tuesday, June 9, 2009

♥ What a day?

Yesterday night, after talked with Xinyi on da phone. My mood was so damn down. I went to swimming pool. I went there, Im alone there. So, I was lying on the chair watching the beautiful sky and the street light so bright with Pasar Malam. I closed my eyes and lying there. Don't know what can I do? So, after went up then Jaycie called me on time. Asking me what happen and I told her everything. She was like OMG ~ Im speechless. Only Reb, Xinyi and Jaycie knew what happen. Then, after finished talked with Jaycie. Study time, uncle asked me to study for 1 hr at least. So, I was studying. Keep reading my history and I don't know what am I reading? Keep reading back the same sentence. UNcle scolded me said you read so long still same page?! I was sitting there quietly let him scold. I don't know what he've been scolding for so long. I never listen and I keep thinking about what had happen just now? I can hardly accept this happen on me. So, after finished scolding me then I went out to watch Astro on Demand. From 12 til 4.30am. Same channel and I don't know what was it talking about and I kept looking the tv. After that 4.30am I was so tired so I went to bed and sleep.

This morning woke up at 12.30pm. Woke up and I tried hard to waste the time. I don't feel like studying around. My mood was so damn fucking down. After eating breakfast, watching tv again. Then, I called my mom for asking her let me go Mid Valley with Rebecca that gang. 1st mommy don't let coz exam is coming. I begged her so she let me go at last. Thanks mommy, me love you =D After finished talking with mommy then I don't feel like stay at home. So I lied to auntie said I went down swimming. But actually I went to Jusco. Lols. Then, reached jusco I shopped myself. I bought a white mini skirt, cost me Rm69.90. My money fly away again. Then, I ate Baskin Robbin ice-cream. Yums ~ I felt so lonely in a sudden. So, I used public phone called Jaycie. Asked her straight come Jusco accompany me shopping and she was like LOL! Im live in Subang!!! Need pass a lot of Tol ler ah dai lou. I was laughing then nevermind lor. Went back home, don't feel like going up so I went to playground alone, bought a hot teh tarik. I sat on a swing and drinking my teh tarik. So sudden I don't feel like going out tomorrow. I scare my moody face makes whole gang not happy. So, I just decided not going Mv tmr. So sorry guys, my mood was down. Looking up the pretty sky again. I thought I a lot of things about me and him. Our sweet memories. ='( Feel like crying in a sudden but I never cry larr. Im strong enough this time. It's raining soon, the sky was getting darker. I wished it rain faster so I can let the rain pour on my face. I love raining, and he knew it. He used to scold me said stop playing rain larr!! Later you sick liao need mafan me take care you ler!! Whack you then you know. And I'll don't give a shit what he said and he'll chasing me in the school and ask me to stop playing rain. How cute? Lols. Forget it~ Then, went up watching tv til now. Bored. Feel like on9 and accompany him but I don't know how to face him and I don't want to see him on9 also. So, I off9 for whole day. At night, on9 only find all my babes. =D Nothing more to write. I stopped here. Bye, my babes!

I AM GRUMPY.
05:29

Monday, June 8, 2009

♥ What hurts the most.

You made me cry again.

It's time to face the truth.

He don't love me.

Im not gonna say it here how I found out these.

I knew that I'm not doing the right thing, I mean

the way I found out the truth.

Those secret he has been hiding from me all the time.

Finally..

I was sitting in front of my computer.

Keep on crying.

What can I do?

What am I suppose to do?

How could he do this?

I lost myself when I was with you now,

I lost my life without you.

You broke my fragile heart.

You're crushing me into pieces.

It's been such a long time.

Why the fuck does it still hurt this much?

I'm supposed to be completely over you by now.

I missed him.

Not enough to want him back,

just enough for it to hurt.

And then I felt sad because I realized that

once people are broken in certain ways,

they can't ever be fixed.

What hurts the most,

was being so close.

And having so much to say,

and I'm watching you walk away.

You're acting you're still loving me but actually you don't.

I AM GRUMPY.
04:05

Sunday, June 7, 2009

♥ Submit Shopping Mall.

Yesterday went Submit with mom and dad. The day before yesterday night I slept at 4am something. I cant sleep and I don't know why. Then, yesterday morning I thought I can sleep more but at 12pm something my mom woke me up! I was so tired man! She said better get ready before dad come back from gym then we straight go Submit. Reached Submit, I was so hungry so I intro them a restaurant, I had forgotten what name. The restaurant was so small but their foods not bad. =D After eating, we watched 17 again. Wow.. Not bad the movie. Quite funny. After movie my dad said gonna bring us go Popular coz got 90% sales. But me and my mom were lazy so we went shopping. =D Before shopping my mom said she wants to go to toilet. So, I accompany her. Then, she keep sms-ing then keep walk straight. == She going into Men Toilet! I was like Hey mom! Stop walking. You're in Men Toilet! She look in front and she said OMG ~ Lols. Those guys inside the toilet were laughing at her. LOLS~ Then, she was whacking me said why I never say it earlier. I scolded said I shouted at you and you keep sms-ing. Lols. After that, my mom decided to have a nails painting and I felt like shopping alone. So mommy was polishing her nails and I shopped myself lor. I bought a short and a cap. Total cost me Rm70! Luckily I still got Rm50 in my wallet. Keke^^ Nvm, my dad gonna gives me back the money. Then, went Popular bought a story book. It's about Pisces girl and Scorpio boy. Guess why I bought this book? Lols. My horoscope is Pisces and Scorpio is his. Lalala ~ Read it for fun larr! Then, at night reached home, called him after bathed. Then, he said he sicked. Pity him ~ Talked to him on the phone a while only. =D K lurr..Gtg ~ Gotta go, bye humans. =]

I AM GRUMPY.
04:16

Thursday, June 4, 2009

♥ Bad mood again.

Finally can on9. Sure happy larr..2 days without computer, damn suffering. Auntie larr, took the CPU don't know do what? So 2 days no online. Straight on9 then 1st thing im gonna do is on my msn. =D On9 jor, chatting around with KC friends lur. Saw him on9 so I went kacau him, he no reply me. =[ Sad things. Then so sudden Jun find me said he sleeping. Later chat with me. I diam diam say ok lor. Sleep tight babe. =D

Yesterday was Eu's birthday. His gf asked me to help her buy cake from Secret Recipe. She told me any choc cake. She past me RM70. I went to Jusco the nearest place to buy the cake. I bought sugar-free moist choc cake. Total rm79. So, I have to pay extra rm9. >< Nvm, he birthday what? Went back home, dont know why felt so sleepy so I slept with my 2 cousin. 3 of us slept on a queen size bed, looked so cute. Lols. At night, 7pm something we went 9888 restaurant, I ordered the soft shell crab. OMG ~ So yummy =D Last but not least, the cake. When he opened up the box, he shouted, LEE CHING WEN ! I tak mau this cake. I was like..Shocked. Then he took a piece of cake and he came to put on my face. I was like..Grr..Keep playing the cake then all kena marah. All get scolded. LOL. At night, about 1am something, he woke Jessy, me, Sam and more. He wake us up then asked us go swimming. Stupid, reached pool there. Hak mang mang, I scare see ghost so I straight went up. Lols. Then next morning all laughed me say I mou guai yong. STUPID LA ~ Morning eat breakfast keep whacking my butt. He and his gf. Nvm, I sure got chance to whack them back de =D

Happy Birthday Eu !!

I AM GRUMPY.
22:29

Tuesday, June 2, 2009

♥ Finally !

Thanks Jaycie. Wakakaka xD You know what happen larr? Thank you for helping me correcting those stuff. Finally, I paste it to him. Actually I have no brave enough. So I left him a offlined message. Hope he understand me. So here was it. =D It felt so good after telling him everything. But hope he read it larr. Don't know what he's gonna reply me tomorrow. My heartwas jumping upside down. == Here is it. =D

Don keep everything in your heart ok ma? Share with me babe. You what also keep it in your heart, u never tell and I donno what are u thinking about de lor..I always have to guess and I need to make sure you happy always. You can zat me say I always have a choice. I can choose to don give a damn about u and leave u alone. Nvm, I’ll keep the pain. I would love to care about u no matter what, rmb this. I donno why are we become like this? Maybe you scare im gonna hurt u again or for u there’s no more belief between us or what so whatever. Why are we cannot be like the happiest couple ever? How sweet were we rmb? Last time everybody was so envious of us. You’ll never hide a single thing behind me last time. You’ll tell me everything, everything . I miss the old one a lot. Yesterday was the 1st time when I ask you what happen and you said don ask, you’re not gonna tell me. You said you gonna change a style to love me. What you’ve been doing is you suo wei de new style to love me huh? i don’t want this new style , I don’t want, please. All I want is the old Jun come back to me, is that too much to ask for? You know I love you and you know I always do. Stop hiding something behind me and stop pushing me away, please. Tell me, share with me. – wen -

I AM GRUMPY.
07:13

♥ no more days without you ler.

No more days without you ler. Yesterday he finally asked for recouple. Happy lar ofcoz. Made me cry so much so easy want accept him meh? No one support. All asking me straight accept him I was like.. == My jimui no one support me also. Sui dou..>< Nevermind lor..I straight accept lor. Although now we already together, but the old Jun is gone. I miss the old one. =X He changed a lot. Yesterday night, I saw his pm was moody. So, I asked him. What happen? Keep asking him. I thought what happen? I was quite worry. Then guess what he answer me? Don't ask la. I don't want tell larr. I was like.. I stared in front of my computer few min and I don't know what to reply him. He told me sorry. Why I don't choi him? Then finally I talked to him. I was telling him not be sad keep an wei and accompany him. I was thinking and I told Jaycie how's my feel when he said those words? Couple not suppose to tell everything to each other de meh? He kept everything in his heart. I don't know what he wants. Now when I talked to him, he's like so strange to me. Maybe coz he changed. I don't know. He said he wants change a style to love me. I not really likes the new one. I miss the old one a lot. Then he said never try never know. Aww ~ What can I do? Just listen to him. He used to call me DEARRRR...hi.. when I on msn. 1st thing he'll do this. Even though we had no topic, we sure find something stupid or wu liao things to chat. Then now, just Hi.. No more. Then yesterday me and him were planning to sleep at 12. He told me he was tired. I was giving him a sad face. Keep giving him a sad face. Then he gave me an angry face. I was like..He never gives me an angry before. Even though I'm begging him to stay, even 5 min I also happy. Last time, he used to say ok larr..Don't lao gai larr..Accompany you 5 more min larr..I really tired ler dear. He'll never gives me an angry face. Can you see the big different between now and before? Change a style to love me? No, I don't need a new style. I need the old Jun to come back. That's all. I was sad and I was telling Jaycie how's my feel. She knew it. Keep on telling me those dao li. Then, I feel like hugging her. LOLS =X Nevermind. Pey Jun asked me gives him some time. 1 day he'll tell me the truth want. I was like.. OK LOR.. When I was lying on my bed, I was keep thinking and those words he said keep reminding me. Keep repeating and repeating the same thing. No more tears for tonight but I'm sad.. =(

I AM GRUMPY.
00:33

Monday, June 1, 2009

♥ 21st day without you.

21st day without you. OMG ~ How can I handle it? WORTHLESS, HOPELESS. Nevermind, Jaycie even worse. I was chatting with her yesterday. We chat a lot of stuff. About * someone *. Even it's not my fault and I have to admit that it's my fault so he can be happy. I'm the one who always cry alone after seeing those words you had typed in msn, which hurts me a lot. I'm the one who always tried hard to makes you happy and those words you hurted me you'll just forget it? You'll never happy. I'm imperfect for you. I tried hard. You asked me try even harder. I was like.. Stunned there. Every single words are hurting me. Stop it please. Even my tears are begging you. You see, another stab again. AGAIN! You telling me you loves me but why are you hurting me? You know though nothing comes easy, you gotta try real, real hard. I tried hard, but I guess I gotta try harder.

It's the worst feeling in the world to love and hate someone all at the same time. And it's hard towatch things change when all you want is for them to stay the same. It's funny but stupid how you want everything and nothing at the same time. It's crazy when you want to let go, but you keep holding on, when you want to move on but you're stuck right where you started. When feelings come and go and you can't decide what you want. When you have so many things to say but you don't know where to start. When you want them in your life so bad, but all you can do is push them further away. It's so hard to think back to how things used to be and look at it now and realize that things are different, they may never be the same. You tell yourself it's not worth it, but if it really didn't matter, you wouldn't spend so much time thinking about it.Look, I guarantee that we'll have tough times. And I guarantee that at some point, one or both of us will want to get out of this thing. But I also guarantee that if I don't ask you to be mine, I'll regret it for the rest of my life, because I know in my heart, you're the only one for me.I look into your eyes and i see the same boy that i fell in love with, and even though things have changed, i still love you.There will come a time in your life when you become absolutely infatuated with a single soul. for this person,you'd do anything for and not think twice about it, but when asked why...you have no answer. You'll try your whole life to understand how a single person can affect you as much as they do, but you'll never truly find out. And no matter how badly it hurts or how badly you hate it, you'll love this person for the rest of your life without regret. [[ Jaycie found this and she copy the link for me, it meant a lot ]]

I AM GRUMPY.
00:31