Wednesday, June 17, 2009
♥ ='(
Mom and dad are going to Perth. I'm gonna miss them. Then, it's the 3rd day, he never talked to me again. Okays, whole day I'm being emo and I was so damn fucking down. Then, PeiJun, Xinyi and Jaycie saw me and they couldn't do anything also. Only they knew those tears dropping down from my eyes. I no talked much today. I don't feel like seeing him around coz it's remind me think about us. So, 3 days I went toilet never pass through his class. I tried my best not to see him. Everyone knows. But I always see him outside my class every 2nd recess. I can't stop myself staring at him. I was so quiet in class and everyone was shocked. Then, 2 period no teacher comes to my class. All classmates were playing around. Running here and there. I was lying on Xinyi's thigh, looking at them with my tears face. Xinyi and Jaycie were wiping my tears. I talked to them a lot today. Then so sudden, HungBin shouted:" why she's crying like a bitch? ". I gave him a smile. He smiled back at me. Then, I went to curtain there, Xinyi and Jaycie came, looking at me. I was looking outside the window. Then David came, Jaycie asked them to hug each other and press their lips to each other. The second they kissed I turned around. Looking at Peijun and I went to hug her. I never say a thing. I just kept quiet hugging her tight. She told me I know how you feel. I hugged her tighter. I bet those people never know how's the feeling loving someone to seem like a rush to throw you away? Those people who experience it only could tell how much it hurts. We couldn't say a thing, all we can do is watching the whole thing fall and hoping and praying that he/she will come back to us. I just got so hurt..really hurt & sometimes when that happens, something inside just shuts off. I dropped a fake smile as a tear fell down on my cheek and I whispered to myself, "I can't handle this anymore...". It's been a while since two of us talked, knowing things would never be the same, with your empty heart and mine full of pain. I gave you love, all you gave me was pretend. Vince told me people change for either two reasons, they've learned enough that they want to or they've been hurt enough they have to. I love this. He told me a lot of things and thanks to him. But I'm really down, I can't control myself and I'm losing control now. I can't get over him. Watching him walking away is the part that hurts the most.
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