Monday, June 1, 2009
♥ 21st day without you.
21st day without you. OMG ~ How can I handle it? WORTHLESS, HOPELESS. Nevermind, Jaycie even worse. I was chatting with her yesterday. We chat a lot of stuff. About * someone *. Even it's not my fault and I have to admit that it's my fault so he can be happy. I'm the one who always cry alone after seeing those words you had typed in msn, which hurts me a lot. I'm the one who always tried hard to makes you happy and those words you hurted me you'll just forget it? You'll never happy. I'm imperfect for you. I tried hard. You asked me try even harder. I was like.. Stunned there. Every single words are hurting me. Stop it please. Even my tears are begging you. You see, another stab again. AGAIN! You telling me you loves me but why are you hurting me? You know though nothing comes easy, you gotta try real, real hard. I tried hard, but I guess I gotta try harder.
It's the worst feeling in the world to love and hate someone all at the same time. And it's hard towatch things change when all you want is for them to stay the same. It's funny but stupid how you want everything and nothing at the same time. It's crazy when you want to let go, but you keep holding on, when you want to move on but you're stuck right where you started. When feelings come and go and you can't decide what you want. When you have so many things to say but you don't know where to start. When you want them in your life so bad, but all you can do is push them further away. It's so hard to think back to how things used to be and look at it now and realize that things are different, they may never be the same. You tell yourself it's not worth it, but if it really didn't matter, you wouldn't spend so much time thinking about it.Look, I guarantee that we'll have tough times. And I guarantee that at some point, one or both of us will want to get out of this thing. But I also guarantee that if I don't ask you to be mine, I'll regret it for the rest of my life, because I know in my heart, you're the only one for me.I look into your eyes and i see the same boy that i fell in love with, and even though things have changed, i still love you.There will come a time in your life when you become absolutely infatuated with a single soul. for this person,you'd do anything for and not think twice about it, but when asked why...you have no answer. You'll try your whole life to understand how a single person can affect you as much as they do, but you'll never truly find out. And no matter how badly it hurts or how badly you hate it, you'll love this person for the rest of your life without regret. [[ Jaycie found this and she copy the link for me, it meant a lot ]]
It's the worst feeling in the world to love and hate someone all at the same time. And it's hard towatch things change when all you want is for them to stay the same. It's funny but stupid how you want everything and nothing at the same time. It's crazy when you want to let go, but you keep holding on, when you want to move on but you're stuck right where you started. When feelings come and go and you can't decide what you want. When you have so many things to say but you don't know where to start. When you want them in your life so bad, but all you can do is push them further away. It's so hard to think back to how things used to be and look at it now and realize that things are different, they may never be the same. You tell yourself it's not worth it, but if it really didn't matter, you wouldn't spend so much time thinking about it.Look, I guarantee that we'll have tough times. And I guarantee that at some point, one or both of us will want to get out of this thing. But I also guarantee that if I don't ask you to be mine, I'll regret it for the rest of my life, because I know in my heart, you're the only one for me.I look into your eyes and i see the same boy that i fell in love with, and even though things have changed, i still love you.There will come a time in your life when you become absolutely infatuated with a single soul. for this person,you'd do anything for and not think twice about it, but when asked why...you have no answer. You'll try your whole life to understand how a single person can affect you as much as they do, but you'll never truly find out. And no matter how badly it hurts or how badly you hate it, you'll love this person for the rest of your life without regret. [[ Jaycie found this and she copy the link for me, it meant a lot ]]
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