Tuesday, June 16, 2009
♥ 16.O6.O9
Happy 6th Month Anniversary to myself for the 2nd time.
It was last night,
when I was thinking something that you said to me.
I started to cry
because I realized just how much I missed you.
I don't think I’ve ever felt so confused in my entire life.
Tears keep on dropping on my blanket.
Then get up in the morning,
looked at the mirror.
Saw my swollen eyes.
Asking myself,
how come my eyes is getting smaller and smaller?
Then I realized that I'm totally losing you now.
I have to face the truth,
and now it's time.
Should I let go?
But no matter what I do,
I always forget to forget about you.
I gave you my all,
and you gave nothing at all.
Losing you was hard enough,
but I don't want to go on knowing,
I meant absolutely nothing to you.
You're not even mine anymore,
and I'm still scared I'll lose you.
Sometimes I wonder why the fuck I'm still missing you.
I look at the pictures of us together yesterday,
and I wish we could have those moments again.
I could tell you that I love you one more time,
and you could say sorry for leaving me alone.
Then just tears flowing down my cheeks again and again.
I don’t think I have the strength to let you go, seriously.
Somtimes I wonder if he ever thinks about what he did to me.
I wonder if he ever thinks about me and says,
I wish she was still mine.
I don't know why i missed you,
yhy I wanted you back.
because from where I stand,
no one was having fun.
I spent hours, days, even months of
our relationship worrying about
who you might leave me for
because there was always someone better than me.
I spent some time trying to be the perfect girlfriend until I couldn't anymore.
My body tried to tell me it had to stop,
our relationship was literally making me sick.
You wanna get me out of your mind,
that's what you wanted right?
I think it was over before you said it, babe.
fuck you for leading me on .
fuck you for making me fall for you.
fuck you for being perfect in my eyes.
fuck you for knowing what to say, everytime.
fuck you for trying to act that you cared.
fuck you for making me want you.
fuck you for letting me go.
fuck you for making those tears I had dropped for you.
fuck you for keep on stabbing my heart.
fuck you..
It was last night,
when I was thinking something that you said to me.
I started to cry
because I realized just how much I missed you.
I don't think I’ve ever felt so confused in my entire life.
Tears keep on dropping on my blanket.
Then get up in the morning,
looked at the mirror.
Saw my swollen eyes.
Asking myself,
how come my eyes is getting smaller and smaller?
Then I realized that I'm totally losing you now.
I have to face the truth,
and now it's time.
Should I let go?
But no matter what I do,
I always forget to forget about you.
I gave you my all,
and you gave nothing at all.
Losing you was hard enough,
but I don't want to go on knowing,
I meant absolutely nothing to you.
You're not even mine anymore,
and I'm still scared I'll lose you.
Sometimes I wonder why the fuck I'm still missing you.
I look at the pictures of us together yesterday,
and I wish we could have those moments again.
I could tell you that I love you one more time,
and you could say sorry for leaving me alone.
Then just tears flowing down my cheeks again and again.
I don’t think I have the strength to let you go, seriously.
Somtimes I wonder if he ever thinks about what he did to me.
I wonder if he ever thinks about me and says,
I wish she was still mine.
I don't know why i missed you,
yhy I wanted you back.
because from where I stand,
no one was having fun.
I spent hours, days, even months of
our relationship worrying about
who you might leave me for
because there was always someone better than me.
I spent some time trying to be the perfect girlfriend until I couldn't anymore.
My body tried to tell me it had to stop,
our relationship was literally making me sick.
You wanna get me out of your mind,
that's what you wanted right?
I think it was over before you said it, babe.
fuck you for leading me on .
fuck you for making me fall for you.
fuck you for being perfect in my eyes.
fuck you for knowing what to say, everytime.
fuck you for trying to act that you cared.
fuck you for making me want you.
fuck you for letting me go.
fuck you for making those tears I had dropped for you.
fuck you for keep on stabbing my heart.
fuck you..
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