Tuesday, January 12, 2010
♥ What a stupid day?!
Monday saw Yihong after school, and Sunday Junn never call, whole day no find me.
He stayed in school without telling me. Fine then.
Tuesday morning came to school,
reached school, saw Marcus came then went up with Reb to see Junn.
Went up, what he did? Talking with his broS, reading his small test!
And I was like invisible!!! He talked to me, but just a while then bell rang!
Went back class, then recess time went down with laopoS!
Then went up, no mood larhh!! Then 2nd recess, walking around here and there.
Nothing to do, talking craps with Amanda. Then 2 min before bell rang,
only saw Junn came and find me. Want find me then no need last minute gua?? =.=
Fine, he just looked at me and WALKED AWAY with Wz!! He cannot do anything, coz BELL RANG!!
After school, saw him, he came down and wait for me, and we were chatting around.
Then went to bridge together. Reached home about 4, after bathed everything,
onlined at 4.15pm. Then wait wait wait for him to on9.
Wait until 5!! Finally he on, I didnt know he on9 actually,
I saw his facebook only I realized he's on9.
I went to find him, he blamed me and being angry coz I didnt find him.
Always blamed me didnt find him or else.
He lerhh, recess time he got free time also wont spend his time for me like last time larh..
Amanda always tell me, Junn at the class, go find him larh.
And I always answered, he miss me automatic will come to me.
Why always I go to find him, and what he did? He always expect this and that.
I didnt do it then bu shuang!! Me lerhh?! Got care about my feeling ma??
He cannot come and find me? Or else busy with his frens.
I told him I didnt see, he answered, you always like that de larh..=.=
He told me he just woke up, then what he did?
Keep on replying me like FU YAN me!! What the hell?!! I dont even know what I did.
The way he talk, those words he typed so bu shuang.
Then he told me he just woke up, so his mood bad.
Last time he woke up he also wont like this de larh..Always make me sad.
What can I do? What also follow him lorh. I hate argue-ing. DAMN!!!!!
Always keep it in heart, being so stupid girl. 3 more days then 1 year Anniversary already!!
Arggg~ Shit larhh!! I damn unhappy. Pretend lorh, IM HAPPY!! lalalalalaa ~ =D
Who knows? =( Then today morning, promised him go and accompany him.
I went to his class, sitting on his seat, he was sitting far away from me.
See me there and he continue do his stuff. Fine. I went to find him at last.
Then what he did? He walked away back to his seat. I came to see him and accompany him and he walked away.
Fine, I followed him. Then finally he talked to me, but just a while.
Prefect was there, she caught my bracelet.!! Fuck!!! Then he do his homework,
I was lying on the table doing nothing and looking at him doing his work.
Choi also lazy choi me. Fine larhh!! But after that he got choi me larhh, BUT JUST A WHILE!
Maybe he need to pass up his work later? Maybe he dont want me to kacau him or else? IDK!!
Then bell rang, went down, he gave me goodbye kiss and no more.
1st recess went down to canteen with laopoS!! I never eat again.
I dont feel like eating these day, every 2 recess I eat nothing. Always vitagen vitagen.
And I dont know why I keep on eating some masam stuff.
I think Im pregnant!! Nvm~ My baby in my stomach sudah ada dua minggu.!!
Then went up, so sien larhh.. Sometimes feel lik hugging him very very tight and tells him I love u and kiss him on the lips.
But thing had changed, now what also cannot do. Everything just different from last yr.
I HATE IT I HATE IT I HATE IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
He spent his time on me lesser and lesser. Relationship is like colder and colder.
His mood always being worse and worse and I dont know what to do.
Only can follow his step, what he did, must 牵就 him.
And my hand injection and now still very very painful.
And my back too. I hope he can helps me massage like last time what he did to me. =X
JUST HOPING LAARHH!! Im Pisces, sure expect and imagine a lot of nice thing de larhh..
But imagine too much, if the thing wont happen, I more sad lorh. ='(
So must contorl myself, dont imagine stuff, but I really cannot control marhh..
Then last minute Xinyi asked me to stay for accompany Yihong!!
Then fine, I stayed til 4.30pm. Then 2nd recess, Amanda told me Junn went to canteen.
Then I said so what? What's the point for telling me. Actually hor..I very guan xin him de lorhh..I want to know de lorhh..shh..=X
Then a while more, Amanda said, Junn at the stairs, go find him larh..
My heart was thinking, if he really miss me he will come to me de lorh..
No need always wait for me to zhu dong and accompany him.
But at last, HE NEVER COME! ='( Haiz..Sad again!!
Then after school, me, xinyi, and Junxian waiting for da shao ye to come.
While we were waiting, saw Junn came down, then accompany him go to bridge.
Then wait for Yihong to come, actually I want to lie to Junn said I go home and straight sleep.
So no on9 and accompany him. But at last, I hate lying to own bf.
So at last I told him the truth. I dont like hiding something behind, lie to each other. I always trust him and I want to make him trust me too.
So accompany Yihong, Xinyi and Junxian to Mv!! Ken followed too.
Went to McD chatting around, pic here and there.
Then went back to school with Junxian and waiting for uncle to fetch me.
Then uncle said he late came, and I started to worry. If Junn wait for me too long, he unhappy how? Keep on worried.
Then I borrowed Junkai phone and called him, talked to him on the phone.
Told him where I went, everything I told him. NO SECRET !!
He sounds unhappy, and I wont feel guilty coz I didnt lie.
I promised him I reached home and called him.
Then uncle came, keep on asking him drive faster, faster faster!!!
Then finally reached home, fast fast bath then called him.
He sounds unhappy again, I know him well.
Keep asking him why unhappy, he kept on said ntg ntg. =(
Then I was so sad in the phone, then at last he said he need to go coz his mom.
Then bye, love u and muacks. Then hang up the phone.
Haizz....I so sad arhh!! Why want like this wor? I dont like lorh. TT
Tomorrow he's staying for accompany Yihua, I didnt stay and I dont feel like staying. Really bo mood I tell u. =(
Then later I need to go to hospital and see my cousin. New born baby!!
But 8.30 I need to reach home coz I got tuition.
8.30 to 10!! =( I bet he need to have his dinner and I tuition til 10.
He also wont call de larhh..Tomorrow morning I dont feel like going to find him.
I really abit no mood liao, always find him and make me feel like Im invisible.
Maybe I think too much. I no find him, automatic he wont find me.
1st recess and 2nd recess he also wont. After school go home on9 and he's not there also.
He stayed in school for accompany Yihua!!
HAIZZZZZ......CAN U IMAGINE HOW SAD AM I? Why aa?? Where's my real smile?
So I can preddict tomorrow whole day he also wont find me,
I wont find him tomorrow. And I'll see how's tomorrow.
Im not ready to be sad actually. IM NOT READY YET!! Haizz...='(
And I dont want to be sad, really..I dont want.
Cant get his call tonight, cant see him tomorrow. And what will happen tmr? IDK!
Face the truth!! ='(
*Sorry for the emo post, Im just so sad and I need to fa xie so I typed. Dont feel like reading and BLARHHHH!! Go away!! T^T *
He stayed in school without telling me. Fine then.
Tuesday morning came to school,
reached school, saw Marcus came then went up with Reb to see Junn.
Went up, what he did? Talking with his broS, reading his small test!
And I was like invisible!!! He talked to me, but just a while then bell rang!
Went back class, then recess time went down with laopoS!
Then went up, no mood larhh!! Then 2nd recess, walking around here and there.
Nothing to do, talking craps with Amanda. Then 2 min before bell rang,
only saw Junn came and find me. Want find me then no need last minute gua?? =.=
Fine, he just looked at me and WALKED AWAY with Wz!! He cannot do anything, coz BELL RANG!!
After school, saw him, he came down and wait for me, and we were chatting around.
Then went to bridge together. Reached home about 4, after bathed everything,
onlined at 4.15pm. Then wait wait wait for him to on9.
Wait until 5!! Finally he on, I didnt know he on9 actually,
I saw his facebook only I realized he's on9.
I went to find him, he blamed me and being angry coz I didnt find him.
Always blamed me didnt find him or else.
He lerhh, recess time he got free time also wont spend his time for me like last time larh..
Amanda always tell me, Junn at the class, go find him larh.
And I always answered, he miss me automatic will come to me.
Why always I go to find him, and what he did? He always expect this and that.
I didnt do it then bu shuang!! Me lerhh?! Got care about my feeling ma??
He cannot come and find me? Or else busy with his frens.
I told him I didnt see, he answered, you always like that de larh..=.=
He told me he just woke up, then what he did?
Keep on replying me like FU YAN me!! What the hell?!! I dont even know what I did.
The way he talk, those words he typed so bu shuang.
Then he told me he just woke up, so his mood bad.
Last time he woke up he also wont like this de larh..Always make me sad.
What can I do? What also follow him lorh. I hate argue-ing. DAMN!!!!!
Always keep it in heart, being so stupid girl. 3 more days then 1 year Anniversary already!!
Arggg~ Shit larhh!! I damn unhappy. Pretend lorh, IM HAPPY!! lalalalalaa ~ =D
Who knows? =( Then today morning, promised him go and accompany him.
I went to his class, sitting on his seat, he was sitting far away from me.
See me there and he continue do his stuff. Fine. I went to find him at last.
Then what he did? He walked away back to his seat. I came to see him and accompany him and he walked away.
Fine, I followed him. Then finally he talked to me, but just a while.
Prefect was there, she caught my bracelet.!! Fuck!!! Then he do his homework,
I was lying on the table doing nothing and looking at him doing his work.
Choi also lazy choi me. Fine larhh!! But after that he got choi me larhh, BUT JUST A WHILE!
Maybe he need to pass up his work later? Maybe he dont want me to kacau him or else? IDK!!
Then bell rang, went down, he gave me goodbye kiss and no more.
1st recess went down to canteen with laopoS!! I never eat again.
I dont feel like eating these day, every 2 recess I eat nothing. Always vitagen vitagen.
And I dont know why I keep on eating some masam stuff.
I think Im pregnant!! Nvm~ My baby in my stomach sudah ada dua minggu.!!
Then went up, so sien larhh.. Sometimes feel lik hugging him very very tight and tells him I love u and kiss him on the lips.
But thing had changed, now what also cannot do. Everything just different from last yr.
I HATE IT I HATE IT I HATE IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
He spent his time on me lesser and lesser. Relationship is like colder and colder.
His mood always being worse and worse and I dont know what to do.
Only can follow his step, what he did, must 牵就 him.
And my hand injection and now still very very painful.
And my back too. I hope he can helps me massage like last time what he did to me. =X
JUST HOPING LAARHH!! Im Pisces, sure expect and imagine a lot of nice thing de larhh..
But imagine too much, if the thing wont happen, I more sad lorh. ='(
So must contorl myself, dont imagine stuff, but I really cannot control marhh..
Then last minute Xinyi asked me to stay for accompany Yihong!!
Then fine, I stayed til 4.30pm. Then 2nd recess, Amanda told me Junn went to canteen.
Then I said so what? What's the point for telling me. Actually hor..I very guan xin him de lorhh..I want to know de lorhh..shh..=X
Then a while more, Amanda said, Junn at the stairs, go find him larh..
My heart was thinking, if he really miss me he will come to me de lorh..
No need always wait for me to zhu dong and accompany him.
But at last, HE NEVER COME! ='( Haiz..Sad again!!
Then after school, me, xinyi, and Junxian waiting for da shao ye to come.
While we were waiting, saw Junn came down, then accompany him go to bridge.
Then wait for Yihong to come, actually I want to lie to Junn said I go home and straight sleep.
So no on9 and accompany him. But at last, I hate lying to own bf.
So at last I told him the truth. I dont like hiding something behind, lie to each other. I always trust him and I want to make him trust me too.
So accompany Yihong, Xinyi and Junxian to Mv!! Ken followed too.
Went to McD chatting around, pic here and there.
Then went back to school with Junxian and waiting for uncle to fetch me.
Then uncle said he late came, and I started to worry. If Junn wait for me too long, he unhappy how? Keep on worried.
Then I borrowed Junkai phone and called him, talked to him on the phone.
Told him where I went, everything I told him. NO SECRET !!
He sounds unhappy, and I wont feel guilty coz I didnt lie.
I promised him I reached home and called him.
Then uncle came, keep on asking him drive faster, faster faster!!!
Then finally reached home, fast fast bath then called him.
He sounds unhappy again, I know him well.
Keep asking him why unhappy, he kept on said ntg ntg. =(
Then I was so sad in the phone, then at last he said he need to go coz his mom.
Then bye, love u and muacks. Then hang up the phone.
Haizz....I so sad arhh!! Why want like this wor? I dont like lorh. TT
Tomorrow he's staying for accompany Yihua, I didnt stay and I dont feel like staying. Really bo mood I tell u. =(
Then later I need to go to hospital and see my cousin. New born baby!!
But 8.30 I need to reach home coz I got tuition.
8.30 to 10!! =( I bet he need to have his dinner and I tuition til 10.
He also wont call de larhh..Tomorrow morning I dont feel like going to find him.
I really abit no mood liao, always find him and make me feel like Im invisible.
Maybe I think too much. I no find him, automatic he wont find me.
1st recess and 2nd recess he also wont. After school go home on9 and he's not there also.
He stayed in school for accompany Yihua!!
HAIZZZZZ......CAN U IMAGINE HOW SAD AM I? Why aa?? Where's my real smile?
So I can preddict tomorrow whole day he also wont find me,
I wont find him tomorrow. And I'll see how's tomorrow.
Im not ready to be sad actually. IM NOT READY YET!! Haizz...='(
And I dont want to be sad, really..I dont want.
Cant get his call tonight, cant see him tomorrow. And what will happen tmr? IDK!
Face the truth!! ='(
*Sorry for the emo post, Im just so sad and I need to fa xie so I typed. Dont feel like reading and BLARHHHH!! Go away!! T^T *
01:05
