Wednesday, July 22, 2009
♥ Hate hate hate... ><
The day before yesterday I argued with family. They said I never respect them. They expected me to get high mark but my result was sucked. I dont know how to face them. They said they dont want to see me. What can I do? My dad throw my exam paper at me. He said I hurted my mom. How can I do that to her? I did tried hard to study. I really did. But they said result proved everything. I was down. They said I did a lot of stuff which was bad. I'll never learn a single shit. Im sad. I feel like running away from home. Eventhough when I hear the HOME word and my hands are shaking. My result average was 53.00 but they wanted me to get 65 above. Their expectation too high. I really cant do it. Felt so dissapointed at myself and felt so sorry for my family. All of them blamed me for being stupid. My uncle said so many kids in the family. I got the WOSRT result ever. I cried cried cried. Even every single word which they were saying was hurting me. T.T I really dont know what to do. Even when they asked me. I wanted to explain. But problems is they'll never listen to me. For them everything I said was BULLSHIT.!!! I rather staying quiet than argue-ing with them. They stopped me from everything. No computer no outing no this no that. They thought if they grounded me so I'll listen to them and I'll become hardworking and get my average 65 above. BULLSHIT !! I'll never change. Eventhough I tried hard but everything still the same. They grounded me and it's making me more 叛逆!! And I'll beomce more lazier... =(
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