Tuesday, May 12, 2009
♥ You're not sorry.
Why 2 of them are treating me like this? I'm the one who always get hurt. It's painful that you keep stabbing my heart with your knife. This morning everything is fine while me and Junn were talking. After that, I went to his class. Then, he sat at his place and I sat behind Aaron. Then, Rachel came and sat beside Junn. I kept quiet. Junn like don't even give a shit about me. So, I went back to class. Before bell rang, I went to toilet with Xinyi and Jiarun. Jean saw me and he touched my hand then I fall down and accidently hitted his face. He thought I was playing around so he was mad at me. == I was damn innocent man. After that, everything went normally. 2nd recess, Junn promised me he'll come and see me. == At last, what happen? He never come. I was joking around with JunKai they all. I was keep acting that nothing happen and I'm happy always. I kept everything in my heart. I tried laughing so hard to let go of everything. But they'll never know how hurt am I? After school, Junn promised he'll come to my class and accompany me go opposite eat lunch. Then, I waited him damn long and he never come. So, I went Timesquare with Weizhun, Qilin and Rachel. We went to Gasoline and we were eating there. Then, went back school. I saw Junn and few min later don't know where he went so I went to badminton court played badminton with Junkai. My skills is getting sucks because I long time no play badminton ler. Then, I got up and went to canteen. I saw Junn was sitting with Rachel again! AGAIN! I'm easy jealous girl ok. OMG~ I not so happy anyways. After that, I saw Junn was going back with Rachel and he ignored me. I bought my drink and went to public phone there. I saw Junn alone so I went to find him. He was keep ignoring me and he acted like he didn't see me. I was chasing him because I wanna know what happen today? He'll never ignore me. He changed. At last, I gave up. I stopped there and stared. After breaking up with him. He changed to another person. Yes, it is. I still can't believe this. He'll never ignore me. He'll never fong fei gei me. He'll never treat me as cold as now before. NEVER. It hurts me a lot. He changed. He used to accompany me all the time and now he spent his time on flirting around. What the fuck? You're not sorry boy. Then, I sat there I was waiting my uncle to come. I was talking with Xinyi and Jiarun. Suddenly, my auntie came from behind and scolded me YOU WANTED ME TO WAIT HOW LONG? YOU WANT DIE A?! I didn;t know she was waiting for me. I'm so damn fucking innocent. She's thinks her voice loud enough so she was correct and I'm wrong. FUCK OFF! I sat in car quietly and let her scold. I'm here to say. I quiet because I'm tired and I don't want to fight back. So, I let her scold. She keep scolding then suddenly I fall as sleep. == Reached home she's still talking to herself. Reached home, I onlined. Then, I saw Jean and I told him sorry coz I smacked his face accidently. He said nevermind. He suddenly asked me why you jealous when you saw Junn was talking with another girl? Are you going to recouple with him because you don't want to see him flirting with another girl right? I was speechless. Then, my msn suddenly got problem. I don't have a chance to explain. Sad. When I onlined back he offlined ler. ='( All this time I was hoping and waiting that you could come around. I've been giving a lot of chances everytime and all you do is let me down. And it's taken me so long to figured it out that you don't love me anymore. You can always tell me that you're sorry but I don't believe you like I did before.
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