Wednesday, May 13, 2009
♥ Another hard day for me.
This morning, 3.03am. I'm sitting on my bed and looking outside the window with a rainy weather. It's cold. I wish that there's a person come and hug me to sleep. I don't know why I can't sleep at all. I thought many things about 3 of us. Jean keep asking me why it's so complicated? I asked myself why it's so complicated? I can barely answer this man. I don't know what they're thinking? They used to say love you love you and now what happen? I felt like crying when I was sitting on my bed. 4 days more to decide let them go or keep one of them safely with me? After 4 days, I'll give up on everything. It's suffer a lot. I gave my heart to you, I trusted you'll keep it safely and taking care of it with all your heart. Time goes by, and now what happen? You broke it with your own hand. Keep stabing my heart with your blade until the blood had finish. There's only one way to fix it back. fix it with your own hand, taking care of it nicely and PROMISE ME THAT YOU'LL NEVER BREAK IT AGAIN. Do you know what it feels like loving someone to seem a rush to throw you away? ='( Today was another hard day for me. Let's start from 2nd recess. 2nd recess I was sitting in my class with Xinyi. I was listening WenFang's mp3. All break up songs, not all la but most of all. SUITE ME =D Then, Jean came to my class keep walking and talking around. Suddenly I looked at him and he was coming to my place. I thought he has something to say to me. He came to my seat looked at me, smiled and walked away. I was like.. Stupid!Keep listening the mp3. Then suddenly I saw Junn came to my class, and I was listening the song about something like me and Junn's story d.What the hell? My tears pouring out. I can't take it and my tears keep coming out. == Xinyi was keep asking me stop crying stop crying. Then bell rang, I went to toilet with PeiJun. We skipped our science period. We were sitting in the toilet listening to the mp3. CRY CRY CRY. I also don't want d, but I can't stop myself ma.. ='( Then, PeiJun sayang sayang me lor. Came back class then we lied to teacher said stomachache. I knew teacher knew I cried and we skipped our class. My science teacher knows me well. She knew everything too. I love her, 蔡爱华老师. After school, I got tuition in school today. Me and Rebecca went to canteen and we ate like half an hour. == We ate magee. Junxian shared magee with me and keep stealing my food. LOLS. Pig la him. Then, Junxian keep disturbing me around lo. After finished eating we went to our class and tuition. I learnt a lot of things man. =D I'm happy but I saw Junn was sitting at the corner so lonely. I feel like go there and sit beside him and accompany him talk and do our homework. But at last I didn't do it la of cause.I watched him doing his work silently. =] Aww ~ He's cute. But I still don't know why he keep ignoring. That must be something happen. ='( Ok la. Need to have eat dinner ler. Bye =[
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