Thursday, May 21, 2009

10th day without you. I'M SORRY GUYS~ I really can't get over it. I CAN'T!! I tried, but no use. I tried to laugh as hard as I can everyday. I tried to be happy everyday. I tried to sleep or make myself busy everyday. I TRIED TO LET GO OF EVERYTHING INCLUDED HIM ! I did tried.. I really did... I can't do it. Everything went unusually today. While Malay period, I don't why everything came so sudden. I miss him so much. I miss hugging him and everything. My tears were pouring down again. ='( After 2nd recess, it's comp period. I went down with Xinyi. I saw there's a guy look so familiar. It's Jun. His leg chao gan again. OMG~ I saw his face so xinku. Tears were pouring down. I tried I keep it inside my eyes and I tried not to drop it. It works, FINALLY. I'm so worry about him man. I went there, I wanna see how was him? Was him okay? Felt better? Everything? Stupid teacher don't let me see him. Asked us go back class. I was so worried. My heart was jumping up side down. The seconds I turned around. I feel like crying. I can't stop myself to care about him. I can't control myself to stop loving him and moving on. I can't do it. Sorry I dissapointed you guys. I saw him like so painful, it's just like stabbing my heart with a blade, left a scar there. Can't recover. The scar forever will be there. You're the scar, forever will be in my heart...I can't move on without you.. I'll stuck here..